Hello, and Welcome to my Mind.

The goddess of love is out to get me.

Girl I like. We're mates, and I fancy her to bits. You can understand, it gets a little awkward. She recently broke up with her ex for the third (count them) time. I was pretty happy about this but now less than a week later she goes out with a guy I know who is from a different school.

I saw it in her MSN name, and although I pretended not to care I got quite pissed off and sad, gradually like. (This was about 20 minutes ago)

She doesn't know I have a crush on her and neither does anyone else apart from the guy she goes out with now. I know he has fancied her for some time, and vice versa.

So do I tell her? I really don't want to risk losing the freindship, there are also complications involving her best friend.

Also, I'm not very stable atm. Mood swings and the like. I'm not very confident, I find it had to take things seriously and I would be very embarresed if I stuttered (as I sometimes do) while I was telling her so I dont think long - winded speeches are appropriate.

Do I tell her? Help!

Had a hell of a weekend. Went round Joe's on saturday, was only supposed to be going for the day, ended up sleeping the night in a house in Essex with the 2 fittest girls on Earth. Woke up in the morning with a hangover, wearing lots of makeup, a necklace and a mini handbag. Heh.

I'm not a petrolhead, I'm a speed freak. Why can't you people tell the difference?

It's funny, you never really appreciate having good vision until you make freinds with someone who wears 4.5x glasses. The number doesn't mean much to most people, but she has to wear them too see across a 10ft room. Wow.

Ugh. I want to do something, but I don't know what. Something crazy. Something stupid. Like jump out of a plane from 50,000 feet type stupid. I think I'm just desperate for change. Not much happens round here.

Bloody hell it's cold. Snow tonight, said the forcaster. Wouldnt surprise me.

Went to Sainsbury's with some mates of mine after school, and I swear to anyone holy, that guy has it in for me. No sooner had I started thinking of ways to shoplift some lemonade, he was right behind me, saying "Please do not steal the products". Bastard. Not only have I never stolen anything from that place, but I never actually said anything about it, I just picked up the bottle!
Damn, he's good.

A mate of mine rang my phone which has been stolen, and someone with a strong Indian accent answered. Git.

GUITAR UPDATE: I'm still crap.

Okay. I'm done talking. See ya!

Back some more! Been keeping busy, bought an accoustic guitar so I've been driving everybody nuts practicing at all hours. So far I can only play really simple stuff, like Smoke on the Water, and I'm practicing Are We the Waiting by Green Day. Its simple enough, just not very finger-freindly. 6 Strings. 4 Fingers. Help!

I saw a video the other day where somebody put steradent (denture cleaning tablets) and warm water into a 35mm film canister and put the lid on, it blasted the canister about 30 feet up :-D
Im thinking about bringing a thermos full of hot water to school Monday, so I can do the same (WOO!!)

Something occoured to me earlier today - people say "Its always in the last place you look". Well of course it's in the last place you look, fucknut, why the hell would I keep looking for something after I've found it? Do people do this? Who are they? Where do they live?

Going out tomorrow, all my mates were at bluewater today but I couldn't go :-( We all hang around somewhere like the disused shopping center, and we get dirty looks from the police if we see them cause some of us skate (not me) and I suppose its just frowned upon.

Off to drink hot chocolate. See ya!

Oh dear.

2007 again.

Went out earlier and tried to buy a guitar learner pack, and a tuner and stand for it. Went to Argos, and after 45 minutes they decide they don't have one in stock, so I now have a guitar tuner and stand, but no guitar. It pissed me off cause I was so phsyced to buy this thing and now.....

Also, the unknowing love of my life went to a new year party and shared a bed with three people..... none of them me.

I've not been going out much lately, been pretty withdrawn, so I'm going out to see my freinds tomorrow, going to get all hyper, etc.

See ya!